Autism: Understanding and living as an autistic person
In the collective imagination, an autistic person is someone who is calm, withdrawn, asocial and, for some, exceptionally good at…
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Bipolar Disorder: Understanding it and Living with it
After having explored autism in detail in my previous articles, it is now time to talk about my bipolar episodes,…
My disrupted sensory world: caught between too much and not enough
One of my oldest memories is watching tiny floating dust particles in the light of my bedroom window. That sight…
Manic graphorrhea: writing as I breathe
Florent In mid-2025, a hypomanic episode began. It quickly turned into a full manic episode. The first sign, which went unnoticed: a compulsion to write. Mania did not generate creativity. It amplified it. It created an unbearable need to write continuously, to the point of forgetting to sleep. I wrote dozens of pages every day. Sometimes I tried to rest, only to open my eyes wide and open my laptop to unload new literary ideas.
My relationship with AI (and GPT as a therapist)
For about a year now, ever since I started using GPT, I’ve received various criticisms about my mentions of AI. They are varied: some question the way I use it to bring my imagination to life in my illustrations; others comment on the “psychological” feedback from GPT that I quote; and still others question its role as a proofreader. The topic is timely, so I thought I would clarify a few of these points.
Journey #1: The Diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder
My diagnostic journey began at 21. Well, technically, I saw a psychologist when I was 6. After only a few sessions studying me, she concluded that nothing could be done with me and the follow-up stopped. Stellar professional work, you might say (sarcasm). I still remember refusing to follow her instructions because they seemed absurd to me. At 16 and a half, I gradually developed grandiose ideas, I chained projects together, I drew, I wrote, my grades dropped. That turned out to be my first manic episode, sprinkled with a touch of psychosis. It was also the beginning of a long epic.
10 signs of autistic burnout
Autistic burnout is a common syndrome experienced by many autistic people at least once in their lives. It often occurs after years of sensory overload and masking—that is, the constant effort to hide or compensate for autistic traits in order to meet social expectations. It manifests as extreme fatigue, but also through a range of cognitive, sensory, and emotional signs that distinguish it from depression or occupational burnout.
When love becomes sensory overload
A former friend once asked me how I perceived being in love. I replied that it was “a whole lot of unpleasant sensations in the body.” I had not yet been diagnosed, and it amused him a great deal. He had never heard that kind of description before, and my answer was instinctive. I myself think I had indeed never encountered this description elsewhere (I had even researched it thoroughly, like a diligent student, to break it down).
Coffee, my essential ritual even when everything goes off the rails
After my accounts of bipolar episodes, I thought I would introduce a brief breathing space before continuing my content about my conditions. A moment I repeat every morning, which awakens my senses and gives me the energy I need to navigate a world designed for allistics. It is the very first thing I do when I get up. I did it every morning for 12 years before a depressive episode managed to sweep away a moment that was nonetheless so precious and simple. And then, naturally, it came back.
Jeanne tells the story of autism in women
Jeanne Pons Today I’m introducing the “Crossed Spectra” category. The goal: to give the floor to other people concerned. Spectrum & Cycles is not meant only to let me tell my whole life story, but also to share other experiences, just as embodied, raw, and unfiltered. I therefore invited my friend Jeanne to speak and explain in detail what autism in women looks like and to share her lived experience. (And I disclaim all responsibility for her touches of humor in the titles — I did ask her to include some!)
Autism: Understanding and living as an autistic person
In the collective imagination, an autistic person is someone who is calm, withdrawn, asocial and, for some, exceptionally good at mathematics. Television stereotypes do little to dispel these ideas. Many still have Rain Man in mind, with its autistic character stopping in the middle of the road when the light turns red. The reality, however, is very different. Autism is a spectrum and expresses itself differently in each individual. Following my series of articles describing autism, it is time to produce a summary article addressing it in its full complexity.
crash.execute(): account of a depressive episode
It is well known to almost all people with bipolar disorder, some experiencing it far more often than their (hypo)manic episodes and very often for much longer. While a hypomanic episode may last only a few days, depression can last for months. I discuss it in detail in a dedicated article. I have experienced it an incalculable number of times, notably due to the rapid-cycling nature of my bipolar disorder, and I present here the account of one of them.
fatal.error(): account of a mixed episode
Less discussed in the literature yet experienced by 40% of bipolar individuals at least once in their lives, the mixed episode can sometimes appear without warning but often between a manic episode and a depressive episode. I discussed in a dedicated article how this episode presents both (hypo)manic and depressive characteristics. Here, I recount my experience of a mixed episode that was devastating.